2006-04-13 - 11:00 p.m.

It is hot in here, and it is hard to smoke a bowl using matches...I just struck on toward me which lit and immediately was snuffed out by the middle part of my middle finger. Owie. But I think I've mastered it now. Tra-la-la.

Earlier, Seth said I fidget more than anyone he has ever known in his life..."You are constantly moving. Constantly! That's why you're always tired, you're burning energy every second of the day! Look at you! You have to relax K, you have to relax. Look, sit back, baaaaaaack, you're always all hunched forward like a little ball of energy, like, where are we going? What are we doing? When are we leaving? Just. Lean. Back. Relax your shoulders to the back of the couch. Just roll them backward and down. Come on. You have to relax your shoulders. And neck. Unclasp your hands. You're all perched like a bird. Don't sit on your hands! Now look, you're right back in your starting position. You have to learn to relax, K." - and I was trying, oh god I was trying, but all I could do was laugh and be slightly horrified in an amused way that I couldn't, I didn't know how to relax. What the fuck people? IT'S INTENSE. Makes me feel crazy though, but I can't help always dancing or bouncing around to whatever music is in my head. Tra-la-la.

Whew, I hope that tea is ready soon. Need some tasty beverage to cool it down.

I wish I had some Sunny Delight.

ulterior motives - fortune telling