2009-11-06 - 7:50 p.m.

I believe that everything good in us is always there. Always. Not that it's sitting in the front desk waving its hand for the answer every time, but it never goes away. It's only the not-good parts of us that ebb or rise, that we let loose, contain or tame; I won't even call these "bad" parts of us, because bad is so subjective when it comes to personality, but of course so is good. We know what we embrace in others, but judgment calls only at inopportune moments at times, and sometimes we make barbed wires out of other people's clothes hangers. That's what you get for rummaging around in others' closets, no matter how far they've been opened. Some people make friends with their monsters and it's no business of yours to go messin' with a truce.

But yes, yes, everything good in us remains. Like I wrote a dear friend, everything positive that we are is always there and accessible inside us, no matter how many times you or I or we or us screw up. No matter how many times we make pets of our other parts. No matter how many times we shine the light on other things. No matter how many times we give center stage, or at least the better part of the internal dialogue, over to those characters in our heads and hearts that wouldn't know a center if it sat on them.

Everything good in you always remains.

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